Frozen Words

You know everyone has their moment of weakness... Where they feel their heart breaking.. Where all voices around them just disappear and the voice inside keeps getting higher. Screaming and fighting for something that's not worth those tears, those protests.. I remember the time I had one of those moments.. At that time, I wasn't crying nor I was angry.. I was hurt, I was numb. I guess, I was naive. Some truths are better left unsaid. Because even if telling those to someone will make you feel relieved.. There still are some chances that the person whom you told all your truths, your secrets can backfire you. And lies... Well, who doesn't lie? Even me, right now telling you all this stuff.. I know I'm hiding something big behind each and every small word. And only I am able to figure it out.. No one else. Alright, so back to my hurtful yet memorable moment, I think at that time I was lost within myself, I was scared to accept the reality... I assume I was just afraid ...

It was just too late for me to understand that you were just a chapter in my life, not a whole story. And I got stuck by the time... I knew I will get out of our chapter eventually because its never too late but I also knew that there is a reason behind every happening. I couldn't stop but wonder what that is... So I kept re-reading that chapter, never got enough of you and your charisma... never knew that there are more chapters which are just waiting for me to read them...  But I knew there was something wrong in our chapter... Something like a missing page, like a forgotten promise, like an incomplete end... I thought I will figure it out before its too late but destiny wanted something else... I kept looking, I kept digging for something which maybe never was there.. But I was damn sure that you had dark secrets craved under your skin and I had that burning flame inside me which was ready to peel off your skin to finish that every single drop of black blood flowing inside you...

I had a life you know... A whole different one than the one I am living right now... It was a simple one. Without any confusions, misunderstandings and complications... It was truly amazing and I was really grateful to live in it... But then, he came and my life... My whole life flipped... Upside down. He was like a rainy day... It will make you feel all lazy but comfy at the same time... He was like a storm... Either you have to wait till it passes or you have to go through it if you want to reach on the other side... For what I remember now... I decided not to wait for it to pass, I decided to go through that dangerous storm because I was excited, I was searching for freedom, I was nervous and most of all... I was looking for an adventure... He was a whole new level of adventure and that was the only power he got on me... His thrilling beauty within a beast itself. The first time he ever caught my attention was back before I even had a thought that I might fall in love with him. It...