The Reality...

I had a life you know... A whole different one than the one I am living right now... It was a simple one. Without any confusions, misunderstandings and complications... It was truly amazing and I was really grateful to live in it... But then, he came and my life... My whole life flipped... Upside down.

He was like a rainy day... It will make you feel all lazy but comfy at the same time... He was like a storm... Either you have to wait till it passes or you have to go through it if you want to reach on the other side... For what I remember now... I decided not to wait for it to pass, I decided to go through that dangerous storm because I was excited, I was searching for freedom, I was nervous and most of all... I was looking for an adventure... He was a whole new level of adventure and that was the only power he got on me... His thrilling beauty within a beast itself.

The first time he ever caught my attention was back before I even had a thought that I might fall in love with him. It was never 'love at first sight' and I wasn't even sure that if its love or just affection. Well, it turns out to be both. It was an affectionate love. I was so sure that I had whole control over myself... On my feelings. I was sure I can control my emotions. But like they say, A single person can change the whole world of yours. He was that person to me. All I ever knew that when he was around me... I couldn't be able to control the speed of my heartbeat.

It was a normal thing he used to do to me... He used to make me laugh along with others but somehow I felt like he just wanted to see my smile like he wanted to hear my laugh. His eyes, oh dear lord, those eyes won the whole game. They saw every piece of my beauty and insecurity, every single expression on my face, all the times I've blushed when I heard his name... They saw everything I wanted to show but one thing they saw without asking my permission was my soul... The only thing no one was ever able to see... Not even myself. But he... Oh, he has that something in him that could set anything on fire... on fire of desire, of love, of emotions... And my heart wasn't an exception for that. The way his voice used to calm my impatient mind was a different story to tell... He was everything and nothing at once. He was something beautiful to remember, something hard to forget, something far away from reality but something which can help you feel alive again.

Now, all those things were the ones I thought with just a glimpse of him... But sad and unfortunate turn is, He was never these things. I got a chance you know... A chance to know the real him, to find out if a human can be this beautiful inside and out... A chance to know more about demons hidden inside an angel, a chance to see if he is wearing a mask of gentleness, tenderness... Sadly or should I say gladly... I took that chance. And trust me, I am forever thankful for making that decision...  For taking that chance which could change both of our lives or at least mine...

Once I started to know him more and more by each passing day... I wondered how many masks he has on himself throughout his whole life... Because One time he was like a melodious voice inside your head and other he was the devil sitting under your bed... One time he was like the heavy flow of wind and other he was the wave raising on the calm sea... One time he was the thunder in a stormy night and other he was the shining armour in a deathly fight... I get to know him like no one ever had... Because I suffered through all the consequences you might have to face if you let him enter in your life... He knew how exactly you will fall on his feet,  he knew how to make your heart melt with just heat of his mesmerising words, he knew every weakness of yours that you are yet to find out... He was the hidden thorn under the softest rose petal... That's what he really was... The last drop of tears falling on a broken heart.

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