unpredictable

The sea looked inviting. I felt as if it was calling me, asking me if I wanted to join the waves. To tell you the truth, I wanted to jump and see if it feels as wonderful as it looks from the balcony of my room. I wanted to see if the sea would take me in and carry me safely or show me why many people fear its unpredictability.

From where I was sitting, I could sense the fragility the sea held, no matter how much of a strength it presented to the world. One wave carrying the other and so on, it was a sight to watch. It is something you can never get tired of looking at. It felt as if each wave carried a thought of mine with it and that felt good, seeing the reflection of my mind instead of my face was something I would want to experience more often.

The endlessness this sea holds is so powerful. I think the ocean drowns far more desires than the darkness ever could. Maybe that’s why it is feared. This unpredictability of the sea should be complimented. It is a living proof that 'life is nothing but a journey you make at the very moment, the past is gone and yet it will live on in your memories, the future is yet to arrive and it is a waste of efforts to try and predict it, the present is already here and not focusing on it would be a foolish move.' Life is unpredictable and so is the sea. The one who fears life can never fully live. The one who fears the sea will never see the beauty it holds when it is perfectly calm and even when it rages of rain and thunderstorms.

I don't think I will ever get enough of how it feels to be away from the world, to feel it fade away and just escape the reality for a bit. When you are in the middle of nowhere, and you see nothing but the colour blue all around you, making you one of its own, that is when you get the true taste of freedom. When you have no place to run to, when you do not belong to one place, you belong everywhere. When you know home is not a place but a feeling, a sense of knowing yourself completely… you will never be lonely and I guess, the ocean is a place that many of us call their home for it makes us feel belonged, the colour blue, the consistent waves, the calming sound… freedom that has no name, something that makes your heart warm, something that lets you know that you are exactly where you should be, where you were destined to reach. 

There are so many things I could write about this radiant blue world but I guess there are always going to be a million things this sea reminds me of that I won’t be able to recall when I’m writing. There are so many wishes bottled up and let on with the faith of someone listening to those on the waves that will maybe carry it to the right place. There are so many moments I remembered, good and bad, tragic and beautiful, moments that made me fall in love and hate the sea and its unpredictability at the same time… It’s never light and dark, never a yes or a no, never a ride or die… there’s always a place in-between, a place that lets you be whoever and whatever you wish to be and this sea, this sea reminds me of it.