Stay

It happened
As slowly as spring gives itself into the fall
It happened
As lightly as snow falls on the ground
The thing is
It was not supposed to happen
He was not meant to be the one
Who sweeps me off my feet
He was not meant to be
The only one who makes me the happiest
He was supposed to be still
As still as an island far away from one's sight
He was supposed to stay hidden
Like a wish I made but never told it to the stars
Instead
He was a river
Flowing and flowing and never letting
anything stop him
He was the face I saw
When I used to talk about the things I'd love to write about
He was the calm waves every sunrise would bring in
He was everything I told myself to stay away from
And yet
I couldn't
That was my fault
His magnetic force attracting
Every fibre, every drop of blood in my body
And I could not say no
I couldn't look in those eyes
And see nothing because
There was always something there
Something so wrong yet right
So wild yet sacred
Just like a night full of stars dancing on a dark blanket
There were quick glances
And teasing
And inside jokes unknown by the rest of the world
There were bodies touching
But nothing too intimate
And at the same time
It was too much that I was afraid to lose control
We wouldn't move
Him and I
We knew it was now too far gone
We were too far gone to look at each other
And not think of all the wrong things we would happily do
But still
We wouldn't move
Like we were trapped in the moment
And neither of us wanted to find a way
To go out of each others warmth
To leave that embrace that felt like home
It was easy with him
As easy as scribbling his name across paper
As easy as watching him and feel myself smile
And yet it was too difficult
It was hard to get his smile out of my mind
His name out of my heart
Because he was never mine
And I, never his
But we could've been
We could be still
If time grants it
If our hearts won't stutter
If our lips find a way to speak the truth somehow
Him and I could be us
But he was never meant to be mine
And yet
As foolish as it might be
As rebellious as it might seem
I want him to call my name like its the only one his lips know
Like I am the only one who his heart loves
I was never meant to fall for him
But I did
There's no going back now
Just ahead
Just one step at a time until his fingers find mine
And his voice tells me to stay.