Frozen Words

You know everyone has their moment of weakness... Where they feel their heart breaking.. Where all voices around them just disappear and the voice inside keeps getting higher. Screaming and fighting for something that's not worth those tears, those protests.. I remember the time I had one of those moments.. At that time, I wasn't crying nor I was angry.. I was hurt, I was numb. I guess, I was naive. Some truths are better left unsaid. Because even if telling those to someone will make you feel relieved.. There still are some chances that the person whom you told all your truths, your secrets can backfire you. And lies... Well, who doesn't lie? Even me, right now telling you all this stuff.. I know I'm hiding something big behind each and every small word. And only I am able to figure it out.. No one else. Alright, so back to my hurtful yet memorable moment, I think at that time I was lost within myself, I was scared to accept the reality... I assume I was just afraid ...

It was just too late for me to understand that you were just a chapter in my life, not a whole story. And I got stuck by the time... I knew I will get out of our chapter eventually because its never too late but I also knew that there is a reason behind every happening. I couldn't stop but wonder what that is... So I kept re-reading that chapter, never got enough of you and your charisma... never knew that there are more chapters which are just waiting for me to read them...  But I knew there was something wrong in our chapter... Something like a missing page, like a forgotten promise, like an incomplete end... I thought I will figure it out before its too late but destiny wanted something else... I kept looking, I kept digging for something which maybe never was there.. But I was damn sure that you had dark secrets craved under your skin and I had that burning flame inside me which was ready to peel off your skin to finish that every single drop of black blood flowing inside you...