A Letter from the Girl who Fell in Love too soon...

I heard sometimes you have to let things be. You can’t push it, you can’t stop whatever’s going to happen, you just have to tell yourself to let it go, to let that thought have a life of its own. But what do you do when the thought is about someone you can’t get out of your head? Are you supposed to let that weirdly familiar feeling stay in your heart and just let it help you breathe? I can’t help but think what if this is all there ever was? What if this is it? What if the one I want was only meant to make a home in my heart without letting me enter in his? What if, for him, I am just a girl who he thinks he met a few weeks back and for me, he is everything I ever wanted?

So, to sum up everything I feel, everything I wish I could tell him, I wrote this letter. A letter I hope he finds and gets to know everything I can’t bring myself to say out loud. A letter that maybe will flip the page and help me begin this chapter of my life…

Dear you,

I want to confess a few things. So, read it till the end will you? It’s just that I have never loved anyone the way I love you. I have never been so desperate just to see a text or hear a voice or look at your face. I have never longed for anyone so bad that I forget about every worry there ever is, never hoped for someone again and again that only way I can fall asleep is by thinking about your smile, your eyes, you.

I don’t know if I am doing this the right way… I want to tell you that I will be there when you need someone to tell you how loved you are, I’ll be there when you feel so helpless, I’ll be there when you want someone to tell you that you are not alone. I want to tell you I am there, for you. I will be, for the rest of the time. I want you to know that I care. I wish I could just tell you all these things, you know? But it looks like you don’t want to let your guards down for me, yet. You still have your walls held up high, protecting your heart from any kind of hurt. This makes me feel like I am doing something wrong. Did I do something wrong? I guess, maybe I rushed my imaginations and pictured daydreams before I was supposed to. Maybe no one’s supposed to love and care for someone in such less amount of time… but maybe that is just a myth, you know?

I felt something at your first sight. A connection. Something one rarely feels in the world we live in today. Maybe you are yet to feel it. But I am sure you will. I am just hoping you won’t be too late. I hope you will realise that this is how I show I am in love with you. Dropping down hints, hoping and waiting for you to catch them, waiting for you to come across the things I write keeping you in my mind, making you the master of my heart and just mending words together that someone once broke, a long while back.

Now, I hope, when you finally get it, my words will be there to tell you that I have never loved anyone like this ever before…

my words will let you know every feeling you made me feel, how your presence turned them into poetry…

Yours,

Someone I wish you knew.